I don’t know if my previous message sent or not, but I still have a message here, so if it didn’t…
I wrote what I wrote to get it out of my head. That was not for anyone else but me. That was not for you to read, not for anyone you know to read, and not for anyone that knows you to read. I wrote what I wrote to get it out of my head, so that the vile things I was thinking wouldn’t sit their and poison my thoughts. You don’t have to understand that, but it’s how I cope with things. I write them, and then they are gone. I wrote those things, because I didn’t want to think them anymore, I didn’t want that kind of shit in my head. They are not true things. What I wrote about you is not how I actually view you as a person. So know that.
Also, know that I’m not sorry for what I wrote. Because I wrote it solely for me, I wrote it completely unfiltered and undiluted. I had no idea you would ever read it, and I thought when I changed my url, that you wouldn’t be able to see it anymore, so it was never meant to hurt you in anyway.
Finally, if you want to end any sort of relationship (in the most platonic sense of the word) we could have had, because you knowingly breached my privacy, and went against my explicit instructions not to read what I write there, then that’s on you. You know me well enough to know that I am an extremely caring person, that the reason I don’t know what you went through was because you never told me, not that I didn’t try to ask and understand, and that I actually have no confidence in myself despite my accomplishments.
Love and hate are so closely linked that I guess we moved on to the later now.
Well, thank you. That’s very kind of you. You should text me, we can catch up again.
i had a crush on this guy and i decided to pull a Pavlov on him by offering him whenever i saw him this brand of candy he seemed to really like and after a while whenever he saw me he got excited for a second then you could see his expression shift to wondering the why the hell was he so happy to see me and i swear it was the evilest thing but also the most hilarious i made a guy like me by conditioning him into associating me to a candy he liked
Yeah, that one wasn’t the best on my part. I just assumed :P that’s good though, I really do understand that I was an ass to you, and I’m sorry for it. Friends?